My MBTI test

hai folks,
ive just took my MBTI test.. do you know what is it? get to know it, by googling it your ownself ya! haha..

and here is my result,



wow ive just realized that i am an ISTJ person. hmm i thought that i was INTJ. maybe, as the time goes by, ive been changed.. it's possible.
i thought that i was Intuition but at the end of the task, i know it that now i've become a sensing person.

ohh yes i've always believe that i was born to be an introvert. hehe. see how the result shows, 84%.
and wow, my judging side decreases than before i've ever took the test. yes i knew it, that im more like perceiving person than judging. i enjoy being a deadliner lately. hehe.

so, take your test here

i really want these.. now!

what i really want now, are :

yes, i really want this item! huhu.

i want zara boot! yeahh. i think its pretty cool for hijabi to wear boots. but where do i live in? in Indonesia. yup, but luckily i live in Bandung now, which has a cool weather, so I'm permitted to wear it, right?
beside that, it could be an investment for me whenever i live abroad *wink wink

I want these, bcause i think im too small. so that i need some tools to make me look taller :)

last but not least, i really need him to be near right beside me, like on the pic above, instead of  being far away, like we are now :(

im missing his laughs, im missing the way he makes me laugh, missing his jokes, miss him being around me. miss him all the way!

i hate the distance

huhu!

nb: oke saatnya menabung!

envious

yesterday i slept at about 1 o'clock when the power was out. hah ngomong apa sih lo raa.. mo sok2 bahasa inggris tp ga bisa! F!

semalem gw tidur jam 1 pas udah mati lampu, jam stengah 4 kebangun, lampu udah nyala. gw bangun unutk nyalain ac. nyalain ac kamar gw harus pake payung yang panjang trus neken tombol di ac nya. gara2 sensor remotenya gatau kenapa.
anyway gue bangun jam 12. gw bergegas junub, baya2 solat and makan.

abis itu praktis gw di depan laptop in order to fix my blog which disapper on google.
huaa, gila tanpa sadar gw di depan laptop dr siang sampe malem, ga selse2 ngutak ngatik.
apakah itu bisa disebut dengan me time?

si bebi sms, cuma gw jawab sekali. trs dia bales lagi. lalu gue berasa aneh, ga semangat untuk membalasnya. yaudah gue cuekin aja. lagipula he was on his way to sydney. huh kayanya perfect bgt disaat gw lagi uring2an sendirian, eh dia pergi. gapapa juga sih.

anehh deh gw hari inii..
huaaa... ga bergairah untuk berhubungan dengan si bebi..
lagi ngerasa down..
lagi minder..
ga punya duit..
pengen liburan banget. sendirian.
tp ga punya duit.
HUAAAA!

tauu ga sihh, lately gw lagi minder, ngerasa tiba2 ga bisa writing & speaking in english.
minder banget ngeliat orang yang tulisan inggrisnya bagus..
liat aja diawal, gw kan sok2an nulis pake b.inggris tp kaya stuck gtu otak gw. butuh berpikir keras to write in english. kinda need twice times to write it down.
huaaa.. bebiii plis lift me up.
kalo lagi down gini gue bener2 butuh orang, need someone to lift me up.
i cant motivate my ownself lately,
whats wrong with me?
errghhh.
i envy with people who's getting married
i envy with people who can write in english fluently and beautifully
i envy with people who still have their mother
i envy with people who have their family harmonious
i envy with people who have much money
i envy with people who works on their passion
i envy with people who earn money by themselves
AHHHH!
complicated.
irian.

i know now im far away from God. i have to catch Allah as soon as possible.
thats why gue gundah gulana ginii.. ah!
uhuuu!

just realized; the power of writing

hah gw baru sadar kalo tulisan gw di blog FS (jaman bahuela) banyak yang ngomenin.. terutama di posts "2 tahun nyokap gw meninggal"
termasuk bapak gue lewat account adek gw ikut ngomenin, tp dia ga pernah bilang langsung sama gue, huaaa!
jadi sedihh, betapa tulisan tuh bisa mempengaruhi orang. dan gimana orang bisa tau perasaan kita sesungguhnya, ya cuma dengan tulisan kita sendiri.

sekarang gw lagi bingung banget kenapa blog gw yang ini ga muncul sama sekali di google. malah munculnya lewat blog temen2 gw. hiks. dan yang gw nemu malah blog FS gw jaman bahuela. huhu..
bingung..

i have no idea

was it too much?
was it pure because of that case? or its just about my self matters?
ahh i dont care..

i just feel like too tired to compromize, understanding and appreciating others.

saatnya untuk egois, saatnya untuk benahin diri gue..

though i was crying when i saw his apologize expressions (via webcam) by write it on post-it,
but i sill feel the same. i feel like either love and hate him.

hahhhh!
gatau ahh. capek. males. ribet..
i need my "me time"
i have to take care of my ownself..

i dont know what i feel now..
i just dont want to dealing with some kind of relationship things..

lalalala.... gatauh ahhh!
mumettt...
kt temen gw, bisa aja cobaan mau nikah. tp kok hati gw berkata lain ya, knapa bawaannya pengen nyerah yaa.. ahh mental loser! kena apa dikit malah bukannya fighting on it malah keenakan tenggelam di dalamnya.. bawaannya nyerahh!

ahhhhh.............
krisis jati diri nih jangan2.
bener2 ngerasa down.. ngerasa ga berharga,ngerasa malas untuk berinteraksi.
whats wrong with me?
i have no idea.

ngantuy

capek. capek hati.
banyak pikiran.
lemes.
ngantuk..
udah ga bisa mikir lagi..

zzz...

...

sorry i dont feel i deserve "it" by you..

sometimes you can bring me up like a princess but at the same time you can bring me down as a b****!

i dont feel appreciated by you!

you can call me as a headstone, bebel, ribet girl.
you can say i do "sweat the small stuff"

lalalaaa.. i dont care!

i dont wanna know what you think from your perspective..

this is what i feel, im just trying to be honest.
i am entitled to my feelings

i feel like about to explode.. of this kind of "thing"


su*ks!

kamar kosan kara

hello there!
eh eh i havent told you ya..that ive bought mobi modem for me to "internetan" in kosan. yeah blame on my kosan. primitif! disaat hampir sebagian kosan menawarkan berbagai pelayanan termasuk internet. huhu. but its oke. at least skrg gw udah ga mati gaya kalo di kosan dan ga ketinggalan updetan twitter maupun fb. i used to twittering via my phone yang menyebabkan pulsa cepat habis, disamping gw juga harus membagi pulsa dengan bersmsan dengan sang pacar yang tarif per sms nya gope! ya mahal memang. thats longdis! :D i love you though

sekarang dengan modem ini, dan dengan paket 50ribu per bulan unlimited, cukup membantu hubungan longdis gw dengannya, yang kemaren2 sempet parah disebabkan gw ga ada internet.
oiyaa.. sekarang di kamar kosan gw ini yang ukurannya hanya 3x2 (if im not mistaken) selaen ada tempat tidur+kasur, lemari baju, tv. sekarang udah ada galon juga, yah walaupun ga pake dispenser sih, at least gw ga perlu beli aqua botolan bolak balik ke warung. selain itu lebih hemat juga sih. selain itu ada tv, dan rice cooker (pinjeman dr sepupu). horee almost perfect deh kamar kosan gue. hehe disinilah gw beristirahat, menghibur diri, makan, dll. hehe. harusnya gw upload foto yah. next time deh.. hoho.. udah ah. harusnya sekarang gw ngerjain tugas nih. ngerjain tugas masih ga jelas nih, ga punya meja belajar (dan emang ga mmungkin ditambah meja lagi sih) karena emang udah penuh sesak kamar gue. hoho.

bye all :)

inspired by upi

ihhh iri abis baca blognya upi. siapa upi? ituloh sutradara film indonesia. kenapa iri? soalnya walopun dia udah punya anak tp bisa mendapatkan Vino G. Bastian. Ya! mereka beda 10 tahun. tp kayanya cinta-cinta-annya asik kaya radit jani gtu kali ya. iri deh di blognya banyak foto2, ga cuma mereka bedua tapi juga foto2 vino sama anaknya upi. ihhh. lucuu! gw sih irinya lebih karena bukan upinya bisa dapetin vino sih. lebih karena dia bisa bikin iri orang2 dengan share cerita mereka via blog. keren deh!. seperti biasa. kalo gw abis baca blog orang, bawaannya pengen nulis juga. trus minder sama blog sendiri. hhihi! ini link blognya upi

gw juga mo bikin iri orang2 ahh.. gw uplod foto2 sama faz deh. heheheh...











love this deh! candid dr kejauhan. hehe.



ajkh to echa (yg paling kiri) atas kameranya dan udah repot2 mo ngirimin foto ke gw.. hehhe


love youu fazzgoy :)

ribet sendiri

ihh uhh kenapa sih guee
jadi orang bebel bgt ya
complicated. egois. selfish. bawaannya mo menang sendiri.
emang salah sih ya terlalu bergantung kpd orang lain demi perubahan diri kita sendiri.
udah gtu beneran ga ada fighting spiritnya gt gw. bawaannya kalo ada rintangan dikit, yah yaudah deh gw mundur.. cari jalan laen aja drpd mesti "through" it.
hiyaaa. what happen to me. udah umur 21 and almost 22 by next year.
hmmm... lagi pencarian jati diri kali ya *alesan.
jadi belom jelas jati diri dan karakter diri sendiri.

udah gtu kenapa ya susah banget mengerti satu sama lain. gausah menyatukan otak dan perasaan deh, mo ngertiin n maklumin aja susah banget.
bawaannya "kok lo gtu sih?" "gw ga suka lo nyerang gw"
BLA BLA BLA.. hahh..

kenapa yaa, pengennya dimengerti mulu. kaya "ya ini gue, kalo lo ga suka ya itu urusan lo".
padahal ngerti banget loh dan nyadar banget kalo gw tuh sikap dan perilakunya ky gmn. tp emg ga ada keinginan aja untuk berubah.
kayanya berat aja gtu mo ngertiin orang lain. bawaannya kalo ngertiin orang dan maklumin orang tuh = KALAH.
fatal ga sih pemikiran gw kaya gtu.
hiii..

tp gw sadar sih, mulai sekarang i wont let anyone bring me down. whatever the conditon. whoever, not even you bebii. hee. seberusaha mungkin perasaan gw ga bisa dikendaliiin oleh orang lain. yang berhak atas diri gw adalah gue. im the driver of my ownself.
berarti ga boleh ada ceritanya "gue bete karna dia gitu-in guee.." rugi sendiri itu namanya. berarti dia menang dong. *sumpah ini namanya berusaha memotivasi diri sendiri.
hehe.
brarti ga boleh tergantung orang lain kalo mo berubah. harus karena diri sendiri dan berusaha sendiri. bukannya minta ditolongin sama orang laen. "bantuin gw dong ngerubah gw yang gini2 bla bla" ga boleh yahhh... okeee.

you are a good girl raa...
:)

kangent

kangen beibikuuu...
tadi berada diantara dua pasangan membuatku kangen dengannyaa.. (cocom-dito dan dinda-rayap)
uhuks uhuks.

pasti kalo lagi jalan sama bebii aku ga bisa jauh2 deh jalannya.. heuheu.
trs mataku ga bisa berpaling darinya.
*lebay
HAHHAA!

jadi inget masa2 di bandung sama beboooi..uhuuy! ke dago atas, makan bubur, ngopi2.. pengen mengulangnya!

love you bebiii

sendiri

ngerasa sendiri banget.
sendirian.
alone.
lonely.
no one besides me.
no one to lean on.
no shoulder to cry on.
no one to count on.

sendiri.

cuma punya Allah.

cuma Allah yang ngertiin gue and knows the best for me..

sendiriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.............. mesti ngadepin smuanya sendirii.
no one to share with

hufffffffffffffffff..............